Here's the thing. I didn't realize why I write at all until recently, I looked back and read my older posts and thought; I'm never good with expression. I'm not expressive nor know how to express/explain how I feel or what I think or how something happened. Through writing, I could make other people understand me better, kind of. I write to figure things out. I never really intended my blog posts or anything that I've ever written to be complimented. Even knowing that there's another person who cares enough to read something that I write made me wonder.

After I went (or attempted) to do an afternoon jog today, a thought appeared on my mind on the way home. Do I really matter to the people around me? My family? My friends? When I was away, did people actually think about me? Was I missed? Or did they feel nothing? Are they happy that I'm home? Am I a burden to them?

These questions keep coming and before I went into an existential crisis (well, an existential crisis is a bit too much, isn't it) I realized that it doesn't matter how the world see you. It's how you see the world that matters. It's how you treat people around you, giving as much as possible and never think about getting something back. Because when you start giving and doing something good, it all comes back to you. To us.

I'm a believer. I believe in God. Maybe there are people who believe in the Universe or cosmos or whatever their understanding of Greater Power. I believe that positive energy attracts positive energy and vice versa. And so far, I am blessed that I am surrounded by people who share the same vision, vibe, energy, whatever that is, with me. I didn't ask for every single one of them yet God gave me the most understanding, loving, supporting family and friends. So I shouldn't worry if people miss me or not. I feel really selfish worrying about what people think of or how they feel towards me. It's not that big of a deal after all. So here's to a more selfless future and more adventure!

Rara x
Hello hellooooo! How are you gorgeous soul doing?? I've been trying to get back on track since I haven't been feeling very good lately. And what do I do when I'm not feeling very good, you ask? I like to listen to some chillout music, make DIY face mask or scroll through my Instagram feed and sip a big cup of tea.
If you're like me, love music but very often get bored with your own playlist, then just head over to 8tracks or get the app on your phone and search any kind of playlist that you love! It's also user-friendly and give you weekly playlist recommendations.

So here are my 6 favorite playlists to listen to, click on the title and it'll bring you right away to the playlist.

1. Breathe in, breathe love
This is my very own playlist haha! It literally has 8 tracks in it with artists like Years & Years, James Bay, Augustana, etc. Perfect when you're on a road trip and just want to chill a bit, or just any time of the day really. Go give it a listen :)

2. The Best Chill-Out Playlist Ever
So this playlist is created by Ella Grace Denton, she's a gorgeous blogger, vegan personality and has inspired me a lot to do what I love to do. And indeed, this is one of the best chillout playlists ever!

3. funk you up  
A bit different from my usual playlists on 8tracks but there are days when you feel like dancing around the house and this playlist is the perfect one for it. It consists of more upbeat tracks and some of my favorite alternative bands like Fall Out Boy and Panic! At The Disco as well as Taylor Swift and Bruno Mars.

4. we were born sick
This playlist is so sick it gets platinum. Kinda indie-alternative-covers-remix playlist and the songs are just so gooood.

5. just fucking relax
When I feel like I need to relax, I just listen to this playlist, lay in bed and close my eyes. Because you can't resist a little bit of James Bay and the 1975, right?

6. morning
The perfect playlist for Sunday mornings when you just want to wake up slow, stay in bed for a while and make breakfast while dancing around. Happy happy happy me!

So those are 6 of my favorite playlists on 8tracks. Speaking of music, I found that my taste in music has shifted, though not completely. I used to listen to pop rock/alternative bands a lot (like All Time Low, 30 Seconds To Mars, Muse, even AC/DC and that kind of stuff). I still do listen to some of them, but just a few that I actually like and have it on my computer and phone. The rest is actually new to me, since I've been listening to chill, relaxing music and less upbeat ones. I think it also has something to do with the way I think now is different from... 2-3 years ago? Anyways, I hope you enjoy the playlists and I'll see you very soon in another post!

Rara xx